Friday, July 07, 2006

There is No Separateness, No Lack, No Entrapment

Please realize that you are always, if you are aware, in the center of God and godness everywhere. Only the kingdom of God exists. Nothing but the Infinite Good is real. I am right there right now. There is nowhere you have to go, nothing you have to do, except to be aware of the Infinite Good.

The journey to a goal involves time and space. Due to those two factors, we experience anxiety and lack of control. To transcend or transform anxiety, we simply choose to be here now. The infinite good is always here now--its just that we are not. We do not have to set a goal. No process is necessary. No time and space are required for enlightenment. In true awareness, time and space are not barriers. There is no separateness. The sense of separateness from our good is strictly an illusion, an ego trip.

As long as we are engaged in the story of separateness, we experience the illusion of being a victim. Jesus never said he was our rescuer, although he appeared to be playing that game. In that game, he became a victim to end the illusion of victimization for all time. Jesus only spoke about himself: I am the resurrection and the life. I have to speak about myself: I am the resurrection and the life. He could not speak for me and I cannot speak for you. Each person must walk his own path and declare his own relative story or absolute truth. There is no other choice. We choose each moment to continue to live our self-fabricated ego story or to live the Infinite Good. You do it till you don’t. God is patient. He has forever. He does not wish for us to continue to think that we are suffering, but He allows it. Yes, suffering, like our story, is made up. Suffering is part and parcel of our story. Suffering is used to validate our ego story. Suffering is unnecessary. When we choose to believe in separation from the infinite good, we choose to suffer.

We believe that we are separate from, different than, and deprived of
absolute health, infinite abundance, eternal life, oneness with everyone and everything. And so, that is what we experience. We experience what we assume, what we believe, what we fear: the story we tell ourselves. We pretend that we believe what we see, but actually we see what we believe. As you imagine and think, so it is. What you see is what you’ve got.

Do We Know?

We all think we are aware, that we know, that we see things as they are. And when we hear the word “disillusionment,” or disappointment, or disenchantment, we think we know what those words mean. But we do not. We don’t know what any single word means.

If we don’t know what “I” means, how could we possibly know the meaning of any other word that “I” uses? Every single word in our vocabulary is used incorrectly. Not one single word is properly understood. And yet all of our actions are based upon our words. No wonder our actions are so crazy.

As A Course in Miracles teaches: Nothing that I see means anything. My thoughts do not mean anything. My words and my world mean nothing. All of my perceptions, thoughts, words and actions are based upon false assumptions, stereotypes, illusory beliefs. These beliefs can be reduced to the one generic belief in good versus evil. As long as this belief system is intact, all of my actions, even my love, is ambivalent. Anxiety is rampant.

“Disillusionment” means enlightenment, not depression. If you were truly disillusioned, you would be disillusioned of the truth of the ego belief system. You would be disillusioned about the truth of separateness, deprivation and entrapment.

It is clearer to me than ever before that language is a problem. Semantics. We think we speak the English language, but what we speak is Ego language. Every word in our vocabulary, our entire mental semantics repertoire, is oriented toward the “I” we believe ourselves to be. It is the *I* word, not the F*** word, not the N***** word, that is our problem. Do you get it? *I* sneaks under the radar screen unnoticed. As long as the *I * word remains unchallenged, the F*** and the N***** words will continue.

God’s word for “I” is entirely different than our word for “I”. Therefore, every thought we have and every word we utter is misleading and ultimately self-defeating. A man is as good as his word. This truism is true. But how good is our word? Every word we utter is based upon the word “I” and we have no idea who “I” is.

Who is “I” ?

Who is “I”? sounds like bad English.

Wouldn’t it be a shame if we lived a whole lifetime not knowing what the *I* word means! How many words does a person utter in a lifetime? Millions? Maybe billions? The meaning of all of these words are based upon what the *I* word means. Cellphones are in. We all want to be connected all the time. Yet we complain about poor communication. We write and read millions of books. We have this unlimited highway of information on the internet. We talk and talk and talk, and say nothing beyond what the *I* word implies. How can a false I say anything real? Bullshit is a pretty good word. Where is the Word in all of our words? Where is the Truth in all of our verbalizations? Where is Wisdom in our so-called knowledge? No wonder we live in an age of skepticism. Nothing is sacred to the comedians. They see our human foolishness. God bless the skeptics and the comedians. We live in a Fool’s Paradise. If we don’t question and joke about our abuse of language, we will never be awakened.

Words do not reach their intended target. Words do not get us what we want. Words do not even get us what the ego wants. Dreams make no sense because they speak God-language. Daytime words are ruled by the ego system. Even the Bible becomes ego language. Even God’s word is misconstrued. We have to re-invent the dictionary. Webster is not good enough. Mathematics is not good enough. The ego misuses Webster and math every day, all the time. Science is not good enough. Science becomes a tool of the ego agenda. Research is not objective. Research is usually a tool of the ego to prove its agenda. The little man in the body is the ego. He runs the speech department. Speech runs the world. We are victims of words. We are victims of speech. We are victims of thought. And yet, in truth, we are not victims. What a paradox!

The main problem in communication is anxiety misinterpretation, misunderstanding and misjudgment. Anxiety is existential, that is, it springs from identity amnesia. Ego and anxiety are codependent. We are neck deep in anxiety whether the sky is falling in or not. Since the ego is illusory, anxiety is inevitable until we become conscious. Without awareness of the infinite good, we have been, or will be subject to, anxiety.

Although everyone is motivated by anxiety, we perceive it, react to it, and interpret it differently. Anxiety may be perceived as stress, tension, uptightness, worry, insecurity, fear, panic or paranoia. Anxiety may be reacted to by anger, stonewalling, denial, upset, withdrawal, punishment, pain, guilt, resistance, somaticizing. Complaining, blaming, criticizing or pollyana, to name a few.

Anxiety interpretation is perceived and handled in 3 major modalities: villain, victim and rescuer. None of these works because they foul up communication, and add more stress to relationships. Deciphering our self-medicating reactions to anxiety consumes most of the therapy process. Without anxiety awareness, we can neither send nor receive accurate messages of communication, nor repair communication damage. Even forgiveness requires an understanding of the meaning and function of anxiety.

Usually we do not recognize that the cause of anxiety is identity ignorance. As long as we are not aware of our divinity, we will be on guard about victimization. As long as we do not recognize our infinite nature, we attribute anxiety to external factors, to other people, and to physical causes in general.

When people are in pain, they do not think clearly. Confusion reigns when we get into power struggles within or without. Blame arises. Communication is garbled. More hurt and anxiety follows. Real communication ceases.

Anxiety wears masks such as anger, guilt, blame, criticism, self-defensiveness, belittlement, fear, worry, insecurity, nagging, threatening, manipulating, etc. Real communication cannot occur unless there is anxiety analysis and decipherment.

Be curious. How are you experiencing anxiety right now? What are some of your most typical reactions to anxiety? What makes your partner anxious? How does your partner handle anxiety? We cannot effectively respond to hostility, guilt, withdrawal or defense in communication and neither can anyone else. We can learn to decipher anxiety and to talk about it with increasing wisdom and insight.

But let us begin with inquiry. Is what you are hearing and seeing in this power struggle really true? Or is it just a mask for anxiety? Consider that below the apparent mask of hostility, for example, lurks anxiety and below anxiety is caring. Below ego is Self. Below ego is divinity. If you respond to ego, you will be ego. If you respond to the divine, you will be divine. Please realize that only the divine exists, all of the rest is fantasy.

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