The Mystery of Anxiety
The mystery of anxiety arises because we do not understand its nature, cause, function, purpose, meaning or cure. The reason for this obscurity is because we are not willing to participate fully in the experience of anxiety. We prefer to stand outside of it and treat it like an irrelevant stranger and intrusive enemy. However, what we throw out the back door comes hack in the front. When we assume
the posture of being an outsider to anxiety, we become its victim. What we reject, rejects us. What we distance ourselves from, distances us. What we ignore, makes us ignorant.
I am exploring the proposal that anxiety is the most universal, most misunderstood, most avoided, most maligned, most mysterious and most hopeful of all human experiences outside of the conscious choice to pursue enlightenment. Anxiety is a mystery because its nature, cause, function, purpose, meaning and cure is directed related to self-unawareness. Anxiety is a mystery because generally we are not conscious of our desires for enlightenment nor of our enlightenment potential. The true meaning of anxiety has escaped our notice for the most part in human history except in bits and pieces, fits and starts. It is my sincere hope that this work we are doing together will open the door to this mystery, but I do not expect that anxiety will ever become objective, package-able, sale-able knowledge, any more than human nature itself.
Although I have acquainted myself with the assumptions about anxiety in the literature of science, philosophy, phenomenology, psychology, medicine, psychiatry and religion, I will not go into depth about those findings, as that would take a whole volume in itself. However, this current work is a direct friendly challenge to most of those assumptions and conclusions about anxiety and its treatment.
Join me in this continuing exploration and adventure into the unknown of you and I. You will probably find, as I have, that the mystery of anxiety is as strangely awesome as God. It is my experience that you cannot separate the experience of anxiety and God-consciousness from each other. The inquiry into the nature of anxiety takes you into the very depths of yourself and consciousness. We have always been searching for something beyond our current level of knowledge, experience and accomplishment, but we did not expect anxiety to be the door to that journey. I dare you to get to know yourself by facing your lack of knowledge about yourself by consciously entering the mystery of your anxiety.
John: I did something stupid today. Because?
I made threats to my wife today. Because?
My wife doesn’t trust me. Because?
I am under a restraining order. Because?
My wife is threatening to divorce me. Because?
I saw my wife on the street today and my heart jumped. Because?
I can’t sleep. Because?
I am suspicious that my wife is seeing someone else, Because?
I guess I have lost her. Because?
My wife doesn’t want me to see our two girls. Because?
My wife constantly calls me a liar. Because?
All of these comments and questions were made during an interview with John following an upsetting day with his wife after their recent separation. All of these questions have the same answer. Can you guess what that is? Write me an email and give me your feedback, and I will tell you what I think the answer is.
the posture of being an outsider to anxiety, we become its victim. What we reject, rejects us. What we distance ourselves from, distances us. What we ignore, makes us ignorant.
I am exploring the proposal that anxiety is the most universal, most misunderstood, most avoided, most maligned, most mysterious and most hopeful of all human experiences outside of the conscious choice to pursue enlightenment. Anxiety is a mystery because its nature, cause, function, purpose, meaning and cure is directed related to self-unawareness. Anxiety is a mystery because generally we are not conscious of our desires for enlightenment nor of our enlightenment potential. The true meaning of anxiety has escaped our notice for the most part in human history except in bits and pieces, fits and starts. It is my sincere hope that this work we are doing together will open the door to this mystery, but I do not expect that anxiety will ever become objective, package-able, sale-able knowledge, any more than human nature itself.
Although I have acquainted myself with the assumptions about anxiety in the literature of science, philosophy, phenomenology, psychology, medicine, psychiatry and religion, I will not go into depth about those findings, as that would take a whole volume in itself. However, this current work is a direct friendly challenge to most of those assumptions and conclusions about anxiety and its treatment.
Join me in this continuing exploration and adventure into the unknown of you and I. You will probably find, as I have, that the mystery of anxiety is as strangely awesome as God. It is my experience that you cannot separate the experience of anxiety and God-consciousness from each other. The inquiry into the nature of anxiety takes you into the very depths of yourself and consciousness. We have always been searching for something beyond our current level of knowledge, experience and accomplishment, but we did not expect anxiety to be the door to that journey. I dare you to get to know yourself by facing your lack of knowledge about yourself by consciously entering the mystery of your anxiety.
John: I did something stupid today. Because?
I made threats to my wife today. Because?
My wife doesn’t trust me. Because?
I am under a restraining order. Because?
My wife is threatening to divorce me. Because?
I saw my wife on the street today and my heart jumped. Because?
I can’t sleep. Because?
I am suspicious that my wife is seeing someone else, Because?
I guess I have lost her. Because?
My wife doesn’t want me to see our two girls. Because?
My wife constantly calls me a liar. Because?
All of these comments and questions were made during an interview with John following an upsetting day with his wife after their recent separation. All of these questions have the same answer. Can you guess what that is? Write me an email and give me your feedback, and I will tell you what I think the answer is.
posted by Dr. Joe at 5:59 AM
1 Comments:
I can so relate to this topic of anxiety and enlightenment.
From a young child of only 3 or 4 I was very aware of my dissociation with source. I would run into the garden and project my energy against the universe, I felt fear of me against the world.
At 4 yrs old I had a major head trauma, which left me with a PTSD effect following the trauma, my emotions were primal terror and fear of abandonment, the exact to emotions that exist for ego death. I believe as do some spiritual mediums I have spoken with, this bang on the head was my main wake up call, like homeopathy, the universe is giving me a dose of the same emotion to help speed up that process of release and return to harmony and self.
I am now 24, a couple years ago I asked myself, what is the meaning of this, everything happens for a reason, what is the purpose of my experiences and why do they all congure fear, not depression, just fear as there have been several seperate things happen both physically and emotionally. These experiences have built upon this feeling of fear. Interestingly mostly physically, such as a damaged inner ear, which causes vertigo and anxiety on the physical level due to balance problems. I have hyper insulin problem which means whenever I eat sugar my body releases adrenaline, therefore I experience anxiety. I could go on, the bottom line is I was meant to experience anxiety, anxiety is the catalyst or gateway to my awakening. I know all of this through intuition so to read this article just reinforces what I already felt and believed.
For someone who has been living with anxiety I have also experienced many profund spiritual experiences, visits from the other side and a special healing from a profound Spirit Saint.
Although I am spiritually very open, I am not particularly religious, I have always kept an open mind. I never took the Bible seriously, I felt there was truth in amongst corruption, ever since a child I wanted to find the truth myself.
If I am to be honest, I have never known who I am on the concious level. I would say I am the closest I have ever been to myself yet I still havn't found myself yet.
Although I live in anxiety, I am outgoing and very social, I have charisma and most people cannot see the stuggle I live with, the struggle is not socially based, it is 24/7, it is a struggle within my mind in accepted my true nature.
Recently I have been getting messages from the other side. I know when they are coming as you feel an incredible energy rush over you and when you hear the voice it comes from the ear, not from the mind. the message read, Alex, wakie, wakie, you are about to enter universal conciousness, just lay back and relax. Of course I was taken by surprise and was scared to follow through so it didn't happen. Or, perhaps it meant, you will be reaching this stage soon, your job is to relax now and allow it to happen.
I have been on a couple meditation retreats but the more I meditated the more anxiety developed which is unlike the others on the retreat who seemed to find more peace. After the reateat we spoke, yet none of them had experienced any sort of spiritual experience or anxiety. I felt that I was looked down upon as weak due to my anxiety and that my experiences were make believe. This was frustrating as even the meditation staff were a little patronising. It is refreshing to find someone who understands this phenominum. My intuition tells me that those who experience intense anxiety along the path are having an excellerated development. Whereas many of those who are quite grounded and in peace anyway seem to take much longer to reach an awakening but the journey was a much smoother one.
I am building a floatation tank as I feel this will help me to relax.
Several spiritual people have told me I am due to wake up, yet I am also told it is something you must not chase, it is something you must allow to happen and the most important thing is to stop fighting, just relax, when it happens it happens. Maybe it won't happen for sometime, maybe it will happen soon. I am to relax now, I'm on the train, my bags are packed, its time to put my feet up and allow the train to take me home.
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